Poly!verse. Chris/Darren and then a Darren/Chris/Will sandwich after that, both in-the-middle bottom!Chris.
It’s the week after they film the proposal scene that gets to him.
He isn’t sure why, exactly—there’s nothing in particular about it either before or after that had made him feel any differently than he had about any of their romantic scenes in the past. He’s always been on the fence about what playing this kind of relationship means to him; he has his good days and his bad days, and he has disagreed with Darren about it as often as he has agreed with him.
In the end, Chris just doesn’t want it to define him, either as an actor or an artist. He doesn’t want to be a poster boy. He feels the restriction of that possible definition as keenly as the power behind the story, and some days it’s like being quietly strangled even though he knows what a big deal it is, how good it is for so many people.
Not to mention that his appreciation for a narrative based around teenage romance is about as thin as it can be without being called nonexistent. He wishes that the story had grown differently—darker, wider, stronger, more complicated. He’s wished a lot for Kurt Hummel. What he’s come to realize is that he needs to obsess over the things that he can change and not the things that he can’t. He makes suggestions now that he’s full time again, some silly, some serious, and a lot of it sticks, and he’s happy with that. It’s not so bad. Most days it’s actually a lot of fun.